10:4

I didn’t get my chance to show that I am capable of teaching math. I may have also stuck my foot in my mouth the other day, and it comes across to Miss M as me saying I’m not capable enough to do it either. I shouldn’t have said anything, and shouldn’t have asked her to make sure she was here during the math time, in case I got stuck. I don’t want to get stuck, I don’t want to stand at the front and look like an idiot either. That is how I feel when she butts in (with good intentions) while I’m teaching. I feel like it makes me look like I don’t know what I am talking about. I know that isn’t the case, and that isn’t what she is actually trying to do. I know it is her job to make sure that her students are getting the right information and understand what they are doing. I also know that it is my job to get the information out the way I am going to, and sometimes she says things right before I am going to say them, so then it makes me look like I have no idea what I am talking about, because I am rewording the information that she has already presented. I’m trying really hard, and I don’t let it bother me, because I know why she is doing it, but at the same time, I’m really scared.

The reason why I say this is because I’m not 100% confident in myself when it comes to teaching subtraction when regrouping. I know that I can do it, and I know I’ll be fine, but I’m still worried that I will confuse them. I also think that I am a bit nervous that the same thing is going to happen to subtraction that happened when I tried to teach addition. I don’t want it to, by any means, and I’m just nervous. I’m angry that it got taken away, and I’m even angrier that I didn’t get to redeem myself. The school where I teach, there isn’t going to be someone who will take it away from me after a day of students not understanding, I am going to have to redeem myself and come up with a new strategy to figure out how to fix my own errors in judgment.